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Meant to be?
alone
i think desperate thoughts
shadows come to taunt my fallen soul
my tears wouldnt listen
unwillingly, i let them fall
you arent here to wipe them off
are we really meant to be?
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Monday, August 22, 2005
2:32 AM
disappear
"i'm sorry for using the word "hit", but sometimes, God hits us where we are most vulnerable" a quote from my highschool teacher, one of my favorites, Mrs. Aurora Limcumpao.
i think God is really testing me now. it may seem that everything about me is going well but honestly, i think i am in deep shit.
i don't know where my life is going, i don't know if i will be successful in my future, i don't know if my dreams will come true. for now, all i can say is... it's impossible.
i am so good in projecting that my life is going well. others may see that it may be the case but i am the one living my life and i am the only one who knows all what's really happening.
i am in deep shit!
there are situations and opportunities that make my life enviable. but, with regards to career, profession and future of my money-earning life, i don't think i am in a good position. i am not enjoying my college course. i feel so robotic doing my routines and i am sick of it.
my parents would not let me shift courses. i am forced to do something i dont like. i dont think i will be successful after i graduate from my course. i believe that in order for a person to succeed, he should enjoy what he is doing and believe in it to succeed. in my case, i have to learn it though.
i know i should not regret anything. maybe God really has plans for me with my education. i should believe that He has a plan for me. hopefully, His plan includes my parents ideas. but for now, i just want to disappear.
as much as i would like to continue this entry, wag nlang siguro. it is just making me feel more uncertain of myself.
sorry, after a long time na hindi ako gumawa ng entry, ang bigat kaagad ng post ko.
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afraid to discover myself